Sunday, March 29, 2015

Pouting



I haven’t posted to my blog in a long time. Why, you ask? I’ve been pouting. Very adult, I know, but sometimes childish reactions just make me feel better.

Even so, eventually I got tired of my pout and decided to do something about my problem. It wasn’t a huge problem; I just couldn’t get in to update my website. It’s hosted through Yahoo, and every time I tried, Yahoo Business told me that I needed the most recent version of Internet Explorer in order to proceed. The problem was, I already had the most recent version of Internet Explorer and it still wouldn’t work.

IE had some other problems that became increasingly irritating, and so I recently decided to give Mozilla Firefox a chance. I’d heard good things and, personally, I’ve been quite happy with the experience. That got me thinking…what about the things I couldn’t do with IE? Feeling equal parts positive and brave, I went into Yahoo Business one more time—and it worked! In the space of an afternoon, I had my few changes made and published, and no more excuse to pout.

But it’s gotten me thinking. How many times do we pout about things that don’t work out and then just let it go? We don’t try other methods, we don’t do anything but complain and let ourselves get all upset…and in reality there’s a pretty simple explanation out there, if only we’d give a look!

Realizing this got me a little irritated. I’ve been learning to be proactive in my life, so why did I sabotage myself one more time when the answers were there—and not that difficult to find? Is it laziness? Apathy? Or just plain stupidity?

I’m not about calling myself names or beating myself up for my failures. At least not any longer. I’ve lived long enough to see the absolute non-productiveness of it, and if I don’t look out for myself, who will? And if I’m going to be true to myself and the advice that I give to others (sometimes a bit too freely), then I have to follow a very simple—and powerful—rule: it’s only a mistake if you don’t learn from it.

It’s funny, but sometimes I get the biggest and best lessons from the smallest and most insignificant things. What does that mean? Well, for me, it means that I don’t need to wait for the big explosion to make a change. I can often recognize what’s coming in that first little spark, and I can use that as my change point.

I can’t promise this is the last time I’ll pout. In fact, I’m pretty sure that I’ll do it again, given the right circumstances. But for today I’m feeling positive and pretty darned satisfied with myself. I’m going to take that energy and channel it into something productive—and who knows what that means for the future?

Stay tuned…

~Wendy~


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