Sunday, September 29, 2013

Begin Again

My writing career derailed when I went through a long, painful separation and divorce. I talked about all that here, a long time ago, when I first decided to start a blog. My blogging didn’t last; I was too busy finding myself—as clich├ęd as that sounds. I knew early on that if I was going to go through the stuff of divorce, I was going to come out of it a different, better person. Little did I know what I was getting into—and if I had known, I’m not sure I’d have been so enthusiastic about continuing. Once I figured out how much work my recovery was going to be, I was too far committed. Now, I’m delighted to have made it this far.

I’m still working at InnerWisdom, still dealing with the organized chaos that defines life there, but many other things in my life have changed. I had an opportunity to buy a great house in Pearland, Texas (just south of Houston, and about a 25-minute commute to work), and I moved in late December. It’s on a corner lot with a huge yard for “the boys”—and a gazebo, even!—and more space in this 4-bedroom house than I need. It doesn’t matter. I love it here, more than anyplace I’ve lived in years. It’s the home I’ve been searching for since I got divorced.
More interesting, however, is the wonderful certainty that I can write again! I know it for sure now, in a way that I was afraid to believe for a long time. How do I know it? Well, I’m over 100 pages into a book that has a beginning, middle and end! In other words, I’ve written the dreaded synopsis, and I know where I’m going.
This book is not what I thought I’d write. In fact, I’ve been trying for years to write anything but this book. I had the idea long ago, knew that it would make a great book, but I also knew that I wasn’t ready for it. Honestly, I think I was afraid of it. Finally, I decided that I’d write it for myself, with no plans for anyone to see it…and from that moment, there was no turning back. And all those ideas I had, books I started and research I did? Well, a surprising amount is finding its way into the current work-in-progress, so nothing was wasted. Except maybe the patients of my friends and family who kept hearing about new projects that never quite materialized.
All I’ll say for now is that I’m calling the book The Scent of Forgiveness, and it’s written from the viewpoint of my heroine, Emerson Kirby. It’s contemporary women’s fiction set in Chicago, Hawaii and Texas. The underlying theme—love conquers all—that drove my first two books is alive and well in Forgiveness, just not in the way I expected. Emerson has some big lessons to learn before she figures it out…but more about that later.


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