Sunday, October 30, 2011
What's My Message?
I’ve started and given up on blogs numerous times. I guess I never really thought I had a message to share. In fact, I’m certain of it, because that’s the same reason I’ve had such trouble getting back into the world of storytelling. My first two books had an underlying theme of love conquers all. After my 30-year marriage ended quite painfully, I wasn’t sure I believed that message any longer...so what did I have to say?
Well, a number of years have gone by, and I’ve finally decided that maybe I do believe that message again after all. Just not in the same, naïve way as before. But knowing and accepting that maybe I wasn’t so wrong after all has given me a new lease on life, and I’m finding myself moving forward again, whether I’m ready or not!
It wasn’t an easy journey. I had a lot to learn about myself—my past, present and my future—and I had to learn how to apply it to my life every single day. It wasn’t always easy—in fact, sometimes it was the hardest thing I’d ever done—but in the end, it was worth it. I’ve come out on the other side in pretty good shape, and every day, in every way, I’m getting better and better. (Those of you who love affirmations will recognize that one.)
I’m not sure exactly what I have to say or who might want to read this, but I’m going to give it a shot. I’ve reached a place in my life where I’m making decisions based on living my life, rather than letting my life live me. Even so, I have no clue where this is all going to take me—and, really, that’s the beauty of it. Instead of trying to control or deny every aspect of a life that felt so very out-of-control, I’m making decisions based on doing my very best in that moment. My choices are about happiness and joy, and I couldn’t be more excited.
So what does that mean for me, my life, my writing—or this blog? I haven’t a clue. And you know what? I’m not going to worry about it. I have some ideas, some plans, and I’ll be writing about them in the near future. For now, all I can say is welcome to my world! It gets a little crazy here sometimes, but I don’t care. My fresh viewpoint makes it all okay.